Imaginary Hamster

God keeps killing my imaginary hamster and it really bums me out. You might know what I am talking about.

Inside of me- deep down in the inner workings or my being- there is (sometimes) what I imagine as a hamster running furiously on his little imaginary hamster wheel. The wheel spins to life all the gears and mechanisms that make living life to its fullest possible and I am able to go forth into the world as a healthy and growing Christ follower who enjoys life and is pretty stoked about the spiritual and emotional progress he has made. And all the while my little furry friend just keeps going and going. 

I will go for months with this little imaginary hamster just running along on the wheel that keeps me moving forward with no complaints. I'm happy because there is something inside me that keeps me going even when I feel like giving up, something that makes clearing out distractions and spending meaningful time in prayer actually possible, and something that defaults all circumstances to peace and joy no matter how difficult they would usually be.

But then one day I start moving and realizes there is no spinning hamster wheel to get things going. Maybe my hamster is taking a quick break. He'll be back up and running soon. Ok, it's been awhile. Rise and shine little buddy! Time to carpe that diem. Oh.

The only response from the hamster is an empty wheel that has slowed down to a standstill. 

The hamster is dead and now I have to keep everything going without him. I still have to wake up each day and power through the to-do list. I still have to love people and act Christlike and be happy about it. I still have to set aside time to pray and read the Bible even though I may not feel anything from it. I have to work for what used to come easily. I have to keep pressing on towards the goal with no inner sense of persistent motivation to do so. 

Have you ever felt this way? Maybe you started a Bible reading plan, a diet, or a personal resolution and it was a little rough at first. But then you keep working at it and it got easier each day to achieve your goal. You were making visible progress and that motivated you to step it up a notch. You started enjoying the process and even though the goals were getting more challenging you took them in greater stride because you felt yourself getting stronger. And then one day you woke up and everything in you was fighting against the desire to achieve that goal. You couldn't point to anything that happened to derail you but you also couldn't deny that the motivation to even try and get back on track had disappeared. 

This is when I get mad at God. Things were going great and I was getting closer to Him and the person He created me to be every day. What is the point in making it needlessly difficult again? What is the point in taking away all that I had built up and leaving me on my own? It is in these moments that I realize how much I had been relying on the little guy in there for what I thought was my own doing. I thought I was really getting better at being joyful and loving but it turns out the hamster was doing all the work. I thought I was getting better at being patient and seeing the world from God's perspective but it was only the spinning wheel inside of me that made it possible. Without that inner drive I had no progress at all. 

When this happens I do what any sane person would do. I try to give that hamster mouth to mouth CPR. I pull out tiny defibrillators and pray I can bring him back. I need him to keep working so I can keep working. But after I spit out all the electrically singed hamster fur I realize that this might be a hopeless cause. I am on my own now. 

What God has to frequently remind me of is that Jesus never promised me a hamster that would do all the work for me. He never promised an inner sense of calling and drive that would make following Him and His commands easy. He never promised a sense of persistent momentum that would keep me moving closer and closer to Him. In fact, He promised the opposite. He equated obedience to Him with total self-denying surrender. Mourning, sorrow, persecution, and loneliness were not just possibilities but were presented as guarantees for anyone who claimed to be His. Obedience to Christ always meant obedience to the cross of Christ. Being a disciple without discipline was our idea, not God's.

When I begrudgingly remember this I realize that having that hamster for as long as I did was nothing more than a blessing from God's grace and kindness, not a right that I deserved. Seasons of ease are gifts not promises.

Maybe God thought I could use a break from the struggle of life. Maybe He knew that it would be enough to encourage me through a harder season later on. Maybe He just wanted to bless me for a season. I don't have to know the motivation or purpose behind being blessed with a season of ease to have enjoyed it while it lasted. Who am I to get mad at Him for taking away what was never promised in the first place? 

Following Jesus over the course of a lifetime is an uphill/downhill/darkest valley/mountain top kind of trip and will continue to be so until we arrive at our final destination with Him. Some days we will find walking in His footsteps the easiest and most natural thing in the world. Other days not so much. On those days we will have to rely on the structure of routine discipline and the accountability of community to keep us headed in the right direction until God provides for us another imaginary hamster to get things going for a time. Those days are not as fun but they are where real growth happens. 

Lately I have been in an interesting season, theologically speaking, that has caused me to explore some of the daily disciplines that kept Christians going in the right direction for hundreds of years that are very different than the Christian traditions I've grown up with. Things like praying the Daily Office, fasting, spending time in silence, and reading liturgy and hymns. The truth is I need something to keep going inside of me when my fleeting feelings feel otherwise. I may write more about this journey of exploration into historical Christian practices at a later time because so far I have learned a lot. 

I've always preached that following God is about relationship, not religion or ritual. I still believe that but now I am coming to realize how important ritual can be in maintaining or maturing a relationship. There is far more to marriage than a weekly scheduled date night but having that date night scheduled immovable on the calendar has certainly enriched my marriage. And needing to set a reminder on my phone to call a family member might seem insincere but if it helps me do what I would have regretted later in building a relationship than the ritual becomes essential. Scheduling time to pray, reflect, and be silent before God only sounds like mindless routine until you go a few days without a hamster of inner motivation and realize that unless you stick to a plan there is no way you'll stick to a walk with Jesus. 

We need rituals in place in our lives because some days we have the benefit of imaginary hamsters and sometimes we don't. Of course the rituals (or daily routines, disciplines, or habits) can't be everything but they go a long way in keeping our feet moving forward. I'm done waiting for a new imaginary hamster. I'll keep spinning with or without him until one day I won't have to. 

Horticultural Intelligence

There are some things I fail miserably at but never want a second chance for a do-over.

Processing the grief of losing someone I love is one of them. 

When I lost my brother almost nine years ago I failed pretty badly at the whole grieving thing. I know people will tell you that there are no right or wrong ways to grieve but there are certainly healthy and unhealthy ways which in my mind means basically the same thing. The way I grieved was pretty unhealthy. I know that now but couldn't have known it then and I certainly never wanted another opportunity to learn from my mistakes. I was content using what I had learned to help other people grieve better but then we lost Dad and now I have to personally put to the test all the theories I had of what I should have done differently.  

Last time I buried everything I could as quickly as possible and got back to work on living my life. But what I discovered much later is that feelings are rarely ever just buried. They are usually planted. 

Before You Take A Bite Of That Donkey...

One of the most brutal tactics of ancient warfare was the concept of the siege. 

Instead of breaking down the gates, firing burning arrows, or releasing a large mythical beast into the city, there were times when an enemy army would set up a siege against their helpless adversaries. A siege is a waiting game that requires blocking all the entrances and exits in a city and making sure nothing gets in or out. This is would be like an ancient version of being sent to your room except a good siege always made sure that access to water and food was also completely shut off. So in a siege all an enemy army had to do was set up camp nearby, place a few guards to watch for escapees, and wait for the city they were trying to conquer to starve to death. 

Given that you can technically go 30 days without food and the fact that the city would have had some food in reserve within its gates you can imagine that this would take awhile. 

The people of Samaria in 2 Kings chapter 6 and 7 found themselves in such a situation. 

A Thrill of Hope

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1

I have been thinking a lot about the word "hope" lately and not just because it has been plastered on Christmas cards with enough glitter and Hallmark sappiness to choke a unicorn. I have been thinking about it because it seems to have been so allusive in my life right now. 

But in all honestly it doesn't sound like something a truly spiritual Christian is supposed to have. "Hope" sounds like a wishy-washy naivety that isn't grounded in reality and just keeps up a glass half full kind of lifestyle despite all evidence to the contrary. I want "faith"- that big audacious trait of super Christians that can throw mountains into the sea for fun. 

I have discovered over the last few years that faith can be hard to muster up when it is missing the key ingredient of "hope." Frankly I never really understood the difference between the two and I was surprised to find that difference best illustrated in that ever so pleasant and uplifting Bible story we call "The Fall of Man." 

Why I Stopped Writing

When I was in third grade I started reading a series of books about a nerdy guy named Wally McDoogal who lived out these crazy adventures and misfortunes that no normal person ever has to endure. In the midst of each adventure he was always writing a story about some far-fetched super hero  who would inevitably learn the same moral Wally would learn by the end of the book. Often, Wally would discover what he needed for his own adventure by writing out the perils of his fictional protagonists. There was something about living a life of adventure while writing down on paper another more fantastic adventure that always resonated with me. Somehow I knew that I was born to do the same. I had to be a writer.

But I never really did anything about it until around High School when I discovered that as long as you knew how to write you could ace every single book report and paper you were assigned regardless of whether you actually read the book or not. Then I discovered that people were actually willing to read what I had written. It turned out I could actually write pretty well. 

And then ideas started coming to me that I could not keep to myself no matter how hard I tried so I started a blog to keep my brain from exploding. Much to my surprise, people started reading it and sharing it. People I didn't know were interested in my adventures and it was exhilarating. I finally started calling myself a writer.

And then the writing stopped. "I have to write" was what I said when I felt that ever-present inner compulsion to get ideas out of my head but it became what I said to express the inner drudgery of this now burdensome task. I flat out lied to myself and to those few who were interested in why the writing stopped by saying I just did not have time anymore. This sounded pretty legitimate because I was newly married, in school full time, and working an average of about 50 hours a week. Who has time to ponder the Universe?

It was a cowardly lie though and one that was so convincing that I have only recently, after years and years of blank unpublished pages, realized it's falsehood. I feel like now I owe you and myself an explanation for where I've been lately. Time was an issue, but it was not the real issue. In no particular order, here are the real reasons you haven't heard from me in a awhile:

I Stopped Running

You might expect me to apply some spiritual application of "running the race marked before me" here but I literally mean that I stopped running. I used to call myself a long distance runner because long distance running was a regular part of my daily routine. I trained hard and ran as many races as I could. Then sheer busyness coupled with injury began to look like great excuses I could give myself to mask the fact that I simply lacked the motivation to get up and hit a few miles before the sun came up. Aside from the fact that running has historically taught me so much about life and following Jesus I realized that letting one discipline in your life slip dramatically affects the other disciplines in your life. Because I continually said yes to avoiding the work of physical activity I could no longer say yes to the work of putting my thoughts on paper. Personal discipline and daily ritual are not the bad words we think them to be. They work together to help us become the person we really want to be.

I Started Writing for the Likes

A hundred years ago writers had to sit in isolation for months and years pounding out the words in their heads before they would ever be published, read, and rewarded. Now I can have a thought or idea and within seconds Tweet it out for the world to see and praise. I get instant satisfaction with every like and Retweet and I can go back and see how many people all over the world landed on my page. I never knew how a simple thumbs up could be so addicting. It turns out that for an insecure person such as myself that self-validation can easily be found in measurable social media stats and web analytics. I can know how much I matter as a human being by seeing how many people "like" what I said. 

Unless they don't like it.

Or they don't read it.

Then I can know for sure that I am a worthless human being. 

I found myself writing only things I knew would get a positive response. Instead of writing because God was speaking to me I was writing so that the Internet could speak to me and tell me how special I was. 

I then found that I could not live up to that kind of roller coaster of self evaluation and I backed down in fear. No one can ignore or criticize what you keep to yourself. 

I Stopped Asking Questions

When I started writing I called myself "A kid on a journey" and I saw my writing as the journal of an explorer or philosopher who looked for things in the world that everyone else was looking over so I could turn them over and discover the hidden secrets of the Universe. Curiosity was my driving ambition. 

Somewhere down the line I stopped seeing myself as a kid on a journey and started looking at the world from the eyes of "a man who has arrived." I told myself and others that I was just in a season of putting into practice all that I had learned in those years of curiosity so that is why I was not getting any fresh revelation. 

But I had not because I asked not and for no other reason than that. 

I stopped asking how I could be a better human being because I thought I had it all together. I stopped asking how I could experience God in the particular moment I found myself because I believed I had bigger things to get done. I stopped asking why things are the way they are because I had resolved that they were not going to get any better. I stopped asking questions so I stopped hearing answers. 

I stopped growing and I started dying. The lack of writing over the last few years has just been a side affect of a much more dramatic spiral made evident in virtually every area of my life.

I'm tired of it.

I need to start writing again because I need a reminder of my own fragility. I used to live by the ambition of wanting to write things that changed the world. Now I just want to write things that change me. I want to write things that remind me to be vulnerable and broken so I stop pretending I have my life together. I want to write things that open my eyes to the pettiness I call home so that when I see my life typed out on the white screen of my laptop I am reminded of the life that I really want to live. I have to write. 

Thank you, oh anonymous Internet soul, for bearing with me through all this. I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart but I'm not going to write for your approval anymore. The only way I know to be truly honest with myself is by forming words into paragraphs. I am very much a work in progress and the writings to follow will be nothing less than an expression of that work. 

Get Your Junk Together

I am by no means a car guy, but I have become quite the car trouble guy.

I have had too many surprise mechanic bills in my life so checking stuff under the hood "just to make sure" is a regular part of my routine. I usually do not really know what I am looking for but at least I am trying.

A few weeks ago I noticed some gunk in my radiator and even I knew that probably wasn't good. Casey asked when the last time we had an engine flush was and I had no idea. We concluded that "gunk + not really knowing anything" was enough grounds to go get it checked out.

After a much longer wait than I anticipated, the mechanic came out into the lobby to talk to me which I have learned is never a good sign.

"You see you've got car stuff in your car stuff, which is a common problem for your kind of car stuff considering the car stuff, car stuff, and car stuff. So we are going to have to car stuff and car stuff it so that we can get to the car stuff to fully car stuff it right. All in all it will cost you a lot."

In hindsight, I am pretty sure that the mechanic used actual specific words and terms but for the sake of not embarrassing myself  I just wrote what I heard. I responded,

"Wow, that's a lot. I can't afford that right now, can you just do the engine flush now and I'll worry about fixing whatever that is when I get a second job and sell one of my kidneys?"

Then the mechanic leaned back and started speaking in smaller words so that I would actually understand what he was saying.

"Well, the problem is your junk is holding everything together and I am afraid that if I flush it then you will only have more problems."

And then I realized my mechanic had turned into a therapist. My junk was holding everything together?

The biggest surprise about all of this was that the car was running totally fine. There were no weird noises or smells or anything else that would be a cause of concern. I could have kept driving for several hundred miles before anything seemed wrong. This isn't the first time that a mechanic has told me something like this but it is the first time I really thought about what it means to be held together by junk.

People and vehicles naturally accumulate wear and tear just by doing their job day in and day out and until something goes terribly wrong we usually have no idea about what condition we are really in. Eventually the junk just becomes part of who we are and actually for a time keeps everything moving. In my own life, I have spent the last several years collecting anxiety, pride, fear and restlessness (to name a few) and I have come to realize that I actually depend on these things to "get the job done" and make it through each day.

Vices look like virtues when they are shown to have a sliver of functional utility. Anxiety and restlessness worked well to give the appearance of a strong work ethic and personal drive. Pride was pretty good at motivating confidence and strong willed determination. Fear was awesome at making me look conscientious and strategic. And the truth is that I could have gone on a lot further just carrying my junk around before anybody had any clue.

After the mechanic explained his diagnosis several more times and pulled out flash cards to get me to understand I asked him if this was a job that had to be done now or if it could wait awhile. I've learned that is a good question to ask when you don't have much money but also don't want your car to burst into flames at the next red light.

"Honestly, if you were planning on only keeping this car for a few more months then I'd say forget it and let whoever you sell it to have to worry about it. But if you want to get another 100,000 miles out of it then I suggest you take care of it before anything else goes wrong."

And there lies the difference between being a fully functional human being that happens to be carrying around a bunch of junk and being a fully functional human being that has taken the time to deal with some stuff: Longevity.

I think I could go pretty far at the pace of life I am at right now but not forever. Eventually my junk will catch up to me. I want a few more years out of my car. I want a few more years out of my life. I don't have time to drive around with junk anymore, even if that junk actually helps me sometimes.

There are two things I learned about dealing with junk from finally getting around to getting this thing fixed. It is both expensive and inconvenient.

Praying "create in me a clean heart Oh God" is signing your name to the bill of whatever it will cost you, which will always be more than what you expect. And taking the time to really deal with stuff will be hugely inconvenient. My fully functional vehicle had to temporarily sacrifice its function while it was being worked on. Dealing with the junk that keeps you going means you may not be able to do things that you used to as well or efficiently as you used to do them. People might actually notice that you don't have every detail of your life totally together (gasp!).

But the cost and inconvenience are worth the longevity you gain.

When I picked up my car after almost a week in the shop the mechanic handed me the keys and said "here's to another 100,000 miles."

I want that mechanic to be able to say that about my life because I have the long term in mind and have the strength and obedience to get the tough job done even though I know it will cost me.

Well not him per se, he is just my mechanic and that would be a little weird.

The Sigh

The past few weeks have provided me with a wide variety of highly anticipated emotions.

I will be honest and say that about 97% of those emotions were somehow Star Wars related.

But there was one emotion, or state of being really, that really stuck out to me and honestly I did not realize how long I had been waiting for it until it arrived.

This emotional state could only be described as The Sigh. Not a sigh of exhaustion or being overwhelmed but an actual sigh of satisfaction. It is the rare feeling you get when the to-do list is actually done and you can finally just sit down and relax.

Is Christianity Hate Speech?

This is a question that has up until recently never even occurred to me as even a possibility. 

But then a few weeks ago the Facebook feed of the nation blew up with responses of literally everyone to a certain cover of a Vanity Fair magazine.

Being a lifelong Christian and in a pretty small Christian bubble I was immediately bombarded with the expected right wing conservative response of disgust. The only surprise I had was that it seemed like we had never heard of someone getting a sex change before- like Bruce Jenner was the first person to ever go through this procedure. And then I realized that the responses were so prevalent not because we were more offended than ever before but because for the first time in history we all had a megaphone and a soap box personally handed to us by the Internet. And boy did we sure use it.

My Hips Don't Lie

There are very few things that feel as manly as having and old war wound.

Get a bunch of guys together for any period of time and you will inevitably find us comparing scars, injuries, and stories from our past that people tell us we should be ashamed of for how stupid they were but we are actually still proud of. 

I love playing this game as much as the next guy because this is one I usually win. I was a pretty clumsy child who really liked the idea of being a daredevil. Well, I liked the idea of being known as a daredevil more than actually being a daredevil. 

But as cool as it sounded to tell people I was limping around because of "an old track and field injury" it lost it's appeal when it actually started hurting. A lot. All the time.

It was my sophomore year of high school and I was in the middle of my first season running track. I had only recently fallen in love with distance running a few months before so I knew almost nothing about injury prevention. So when I complained to my coach about a constant throbbing pain starting in my hip and shooting its way down to my knee I had no idea what to expect. 

"I'm pretty sure your issue is your IT band, or iliotibial band if you want to know the fancy name for it."

"That's terrible. How did I get an iliotibial band? Will icing it get rid of it?"

"You don't get rid of an ilitibial band, Kyle. It's that really long tendon that connects your hip bone to your knee and can sometimes get inflamed if you don't stretch it right or you put too much stress on it."

"I knew that, just making sure you are staying current the latest innovations in first aid" I said as I twitched the hair out of my face to look cool.

"Whatever. Go sit down and take an Advil."

Giraffe Syndrome

One of the most annoying things about my entire life is that I share so much in common with your average giraffe.

Yes, giraffe.

The safari animal with the long neck and spots. Also known as "G-Raff" on the streets. Well, my streets at least. Not that I have ever met an urbanized giraffe just chillin outside but if I ever do that is what I would call it. I know you may or may not think about these forgotten creatures of Africa very much throughout your day but they are always on my mind. 

Thank a Pagan

If you do not have any atheist or agnostic friends in your life I highly recommend getting some.

In fact, I am currently in the market for some new unsaved friends so if you know of any feel free to give me their info. It isn't healthy for people to have too many Christians friends.

Aside from challenging your faith and reminding you about God's call for evangelism and stuff atheist and agnostic friends are always great about reminding you about some really fun facts pastors usually fail to mention in their sermons.

Like the fact that pretty much every major Christian holiday has some secret pagan origin that at some point the Church brushed over and forgot about in attempt to gain a monopoly of Western holiday traditions. 

Track 04

 I remember the exact day that I discovered music.

     I was in third grade and mentioned to a classmate that I didn't know what song she was singing because I only listened to Christian music (and by that I meant whatever was playing on Christian radio in 2001).
     

    She replied by telling me her older brother listened to that stuff and really liked the song "Jesus Freak" by a band called DCTalk.
    

     Like the smooth talking nine year old that I was I told her about how much I liked that song too and then asked Jesus to forgive me for the bold faced lie I just uttered. I had never heard of the song before but much to my surprise my parents had a copy of the album of the same name. I went into my room that day and fell in love.
    

Caffeinated

It is often hard to admit when you have a problem so it is about time I think that I make a very public (though very obvious) confession.

I am addicted to coffee.

I used to just be an coffee drinker. Then life kept getting crazier and sleep more infrequent and a daily cup of Joe became a ritual. Then I met people who drank fancy coffee made with strange instruments called French Presses, Pour Over Sets, and Siphons and I discovered that maybe Maxwell House was not the house I wanted to live in for the rest of my life. Then I went on a mission trip to Colombia and visited the Coffee capital of the world complete with a coffee themed amusement park and the opportunity to see first hand where coffee comes from. Then my wife became a barista at a cool downtown coffee shop and started coming home every night smelling like espresso.

And then...I was hooked.

Why I Have Already Given up on a Few Resolutions for Next Year

I am not a normal person, but I think that has been well established.

While this is clearly evidenced by my love of Eighties Christian Hair Metal and fascination with funny sounding outdated words it has been made very clear by a recent discovery, or rather a recent admission of what I probably always knew.

I hate vacation time.

That felt pretty un-American just typing that out. This must be how Communists feel on a daily basis.

Surveyor of Mythical Lands

Recently I was surprised to catch myself reaching into the cookie jar.

This of course is the proverbial “cookie jar” symbolic of all those things kids do when they think no one is looking and not an actual cookie jar. I would not be surprised at all to find myself reaching into a real cookie jar because I am an adult and can eat a cookie whenever I want to.

But nonetheless I was busy just living life when I happened to catch myself in the act of trying to hide something from myself. I was not looking to catch myself red handed but all of the sudden in the middle of a random train of thought I saw my little devious inside self intentionally trying to keep things from the forefront of my thought process. This surprised me a little because I didn't know prior to this moment that I was crazy.

Why Cyberspace Can Be Good For Christianity

 People have been writing for years about how scary the world is going to get once computers become smarter than us and start controlling our brains. Maybe we are already there and we are all slimy pale white Keanus living our life in little pods while the Matrix controls all of our perceptions and reality. Maybe the Borg have already made their way to planet Earth and are assimilating us all into their bio robotic space cube that once captured Captain Picard in Star Trek The Next Generation. Maybe our computers are playing a joke on humanity by hypnotizing us into flooding the internet with selfie duck-faces and pictures of cats.

People have been fearing this kind of powerful technology for so long that even the word “cyber” seems retro and nostalgic.

And of course we have cause to be uneasy. Relationships between people are changing drastically. Identity theft and manipulation is easier than it has ever been before. The Government can spy on your every move. People are running into people and light poles more than ever because they are trying to walk and snapchat at the same time. The struggle is real in an internet world.

None of this is new and tons of people have already written about the dangerous effects of what our technological future will hold but I like to do my own thing. Call me blindly optimistic or youthfully naïve but I have been thinking and I have come to the conclusion that cyberspace might do some good for Christianity.

Minor Scales

When I was thirteen I received my first guitar and it was magical.

The moment was magical, not the guitar itself but that would have been cool too.

I do not remember a time that I was not wooed by face melting guitar soloes reminiscent of the era of big hair and spandex. I always wanted to be Marty Mcfly knocking the socks off his parent's sock hop.

So I cheated.

That's My Jam

                There are very few things as universal to all of humanity both past and present as a love for some kind of music. You can say you do not like a particular song or style of music but I have never heard anyone say that they hate all forms of music. As long as there has been a thing called culture there has been music to accompany it. Savage tribal communities had deep resonating drums, Celtic people had bagpipes, Indians have sitars and Swedes had 70’s teen dance powerhouse Abba (though most would agree they could keep them to themselves).

Cute Little Linus

It is surprisingly easy to get punched in the face by a Christian in the month of December.

            Granted, I am not sure why that would be a personal goal anybody would actually have but this is useful information should you desire it. This is especially useful when you consider how hard it is the rest of the year to get people who are supposed to be characterized by general niceness to give you a good right hook.

            If you want a Christian to punch you in the face simply say “Happy Holidays” instead of “Merry Christmas.”

Persistance of Vision

The multi-billion dollar international television and film industry would not be possible without an inherent developmental flaw found in the brain of every single human being, including you. I know that was a harsh way to tell you that you are inherently flawed but I thought you should know sooner or later.

This flaw is called the “persistence of vision” and causes our brain to mesh consecutive images together instead of seeing them separately as they really are. When our eyes transmit a signal to our brain, that image is held onto in our brains milliseconds longer than the actual signal is present. What that means is when we have two images presented before our eyes in a fast enough progression we will see the images as one fluid motion.